I'm lazy to think what the title for this post

Behind on writing these days, I still have my draft from 9 Feb and I don't know if I ever finished that draft or just start a new post.

There are just so many things I want to do - if only I can give up my day job, if only I have money coming down on me like rain, if only a day is consist of more than 24 hours, if only i don't have to sleep for at least 8 hours a day - I may be able to do one or more of these things I want to do.

I feel like i can be more productive if I can just stay at home and don't have to make a living - for one thing, I'm sure I can post more bla...bla...bla...on my blogs. Of course, that's what everybody wants and people like me, who can only dream and wish and write what she wants to do will never achieve anything.

I don't feel like being someone I can be proud of today or days before or even tomorrow (hope not), rising above laziness, using my brain and energy to be a productive person so I can feel good at the end of the day, keeping my spirit up, trying to find what my purpose in this world, etc, etc. I just wanna be lazy and not thinking. Whenever I write, it makes me thinking and feeling and I'm just tired of it - i guess that's why I'm lacking in my posts these days. Don't think this will over soon with us moving in to the new house and no access to cable or internet and other stuff following the moving :(

p.s.: I guess the 9 Feb draft will just be a draft since I have this one posted.