Commitment

Busy...busy...busy...
But someone recently told me to devote more time writing & keep practicing if I want to be good at it, so this is me showing my commitment in writing.

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Have been busy preparing our new house that we started to built since almost 2 years ago for the 'grand opening'. The big day is next monday, Dec. 22, which is said to be a good day for moving. Who determine this is a good day or not is another discussion that involved faith/believe of certain people, in this case, the real owner, the funder of this house, my P.I.L, and i'm not gonna go into that discussion ever. I may not a believer, but i know what karma is and i do afraid of karma.

Some of you who read my old post may wonder why about a week ago, I wrote that my marriage was almost failed and now, I'm busy preparing a new house. Does it sound right for you guys? Because it seems that a family who is preparing a new house and will be moving to this much better house is supposed to be a happy, newly established family. Maybe some people who understand this case may think that we are in denial - denying that we have big problem in our marriage, denying that we cannot communicate without fighting, denying that we both unhappy in this marriage. Well, part of it is true - we do are tired of fighting, of having endless discussion on how to fix our marriage but never find the solution. But, aside from that, I'd like to believe that maybe if we ignore it, not bringing it up again and again, we will be better, because both of us know we need to change but we cannot say it outloud, we cannot promise to each other anymore & not keeping that promise, so here we are...living our life as normal as we can. And all I can do is hoping that I'm right, that we will live together happily, if not forever, at least for a long time and give our daughter the real happiness.

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While I was writing the post above, I was actually thinking that I may expose too much of my personal life. Is this true? Maybe I should not talk about it on my blog...but i have typed those words & I don't have time to make a new post. I promised myself that I will write from the heart, I will write what I want to write without thinking other people, so I guess I should just leave it and post it.

So, I guess publish post is the next step i should do. Here we go...