Music

It's been a long time since i listen to music...not just listening with your ear, but listen with your heart, spare special time to listen to it, not just listening while in the car, at the club, or while doing other activities.

That day, I downloaded a few albums into my new MP3 player from my computer. The Best of Cokelat & The Best of Live -those are the albums i picked randomly. That night, I decided to test the MP3 in my bedroom, waiting to fall asleep (alone). I cannot describe the feeling, the experience, but it was like something good coming back to me, something that I don't even realize I've been missing - MUSIC. Bendera from Cokelat flowed into my ear and actually lifted my spirit; to fight and not giving up on my country...country that no doubt has weaknesses, problems, and sadness but nevertheless, still standing and attracts many people. Then...Live came with its "All Over You", "Run to the Water", "Dolphin's Cry", "Turn My Head"...and these songs amazingly brought me to this other side of me, me that's not thinking about anything, just listening and sometimes sing along with the song...I want to sing with the band, rocking, banging my head, jumping, screaming.....I kept listening & enjoying each songs. I was actually happy, glad that I bought that MP3 and actually used it. Glad that instead of dwelling on my unhappiness, I chose not to...at least for that 2 hours on Dec. 9'08.

My ear is tired from the earplug (it always does that to me). Tired & sleepy, time to turn it off and go to sleep. Thank you GOD for giving me this chance to re-experience this feeling, to once again, find that there are other things other than my broken hearted, problems with marriage, boring work, etc, etc.....